♡ my tropical chart ♡
placements:
scorpio rising
sagittarius sun in 2h
aquarius moon in 3h
capricorn mercury in 2h
sagittarius venus in 2h
pisces mars in 4h
sagittarius pluto in 2h
gemini saturn in 8h
cancer jupiter in 9h
gemini north node 8h
sagittarius south node 2h
virgo part of fortune 11h
gemini vertex 8h
~Aspects~
conjunctions (neutral / can be hard or soft depending on the signs, major aspects) union - concentration, energies fusion, binding action
sagittarius sun conjunct venus conjunct pluto, conjunct south node +
conjunct capricorn mercury conjunct chiron all in 2h
aquarius moon conjunct neptune in 3h
pisces mars conjunct black moon lilith in 4h
North Node Gemini conjunct Vertex in 8h ~harmonic aspects (tools)~
trines (soft, major aspect. influence: jupiter) tuning - comfort, developing - energy flowing, innate ability, slow constant action
moon in aquarius 3h trine saturn in gemini 8h
venus in sagittarius 2h trine MC in leo (10h)
mars in pisces 4h trine jupiter in cancer 9h
mars in pisces 4h trine ASC in scorpio (1h)
jupiter in cancer 9h trine Lilith in pisces 4h
jupiter in cancer 9h trine ASC in scorpio (1h)
saturn in gemini 8h trine neptune in aquarius 3h
uranus in aquarius 4h trine north node in gemini 8h
uranus in aquarius 4h trine vertex in gemini 8h
pluto in sagittarius 2h trine MC in Leo (10h)
Lilith in pisces 4h trine ASC in Scorpio (1h)
sextiles (soft, major aspect. influence: venus) complementarity, energy exchange, creation, immediate productive reaction
sun in sagittarius 2h sextile uranus in aquarius 4h
mercury in capricorn 2h sextile mars in pisces 4h
venus in sagittarius 2h sextile uranus in aquarius 4h
~dyanmic aspects (challenges)~
oppositions (hard, major aspect. influence: saturn) contrast - effort, pression - stress, passional attraction, slow constant action
sun in sagittarius 2h opposition north node in gemini 8h
sun in sagittarius 2h opposition vertex in gemini 8h
moon in aquarius 3h opposition MC in Leo (10h)
saturn in gemini 8h opposition pluto in sagittarius 2h
north node in gemini 8h opposition chiron in capricorn 2h
chiron in capricorn 2h opposition vertex in gemini 8h
squares (hard, major aspect. influence: mars) lacreation - tension, action/reaction, emotive earthquake, irreconcilability
sun in sagittarius 2h square part of fortune in virgo 11h
moon in aquarius 3h square ASC in Scorpio (1h)
mercury in capricorn 2h square part of fortune in virgo 11h
mars in pisces 4h square saturn in gemini 8h
saturn in gemini 8h square Lilith in pisces 4h
neptune in aquarius 3h square ASC in scorpio (1h)
pluto in sagittarius 2h square lilith in pisces 4h
north node in gemini 8h square part of fortune in virgo 11h
chiron in capricorn 2h square part of furtune in virgo 11h
part of fortune in virgo 11h square vertex in gemini 8h
interpretations, observations, & notes
may 18th 2022 1:07 pm
i am just noticing how many hard aspects there are to my part of fortune, all of them bein squares.
"If your part of fortune is in Virgo, then monetary success comes when you create a strict schedule and routine and stick to it. When you pay attention to your physical health through nutrition and exercise, you become an unstoppable force. This is amplified for you if the part of fortune is in your 3rd or 6th house, or if it is conjunct, sextile, or trine your Mercury placement."
notes about saturn:
" Hard work, accomplishment, and ambition are all Saturn... Saturn likes to put effort in in order to achieve. Saturn makes these planets grounded and focused. Anything in Capricorn will more or less have the same affect. Actually, any earth sign will reflect “of the earth, tangible” achievements and striving. Also look for Mars in earth or fire. Mars is physical motivation to get started climbing. Saturn is the motivation to keep climbing even when tired."
my north node in 8h gemini with saturn there is giving me the vibe that i need to change the way i think & also go more after mental, emotional & physical + material stability (mental: gemini, emotional: 8h, saturn: material & physical.)
i feel this placement is so hard for me.. but i also feel like it will help me the most..
4:41 pm
i feel like my life purpose is really to gain stability... i hardly have any earth in my whole tropical chart; only mercury in capricorn plus it's conjunct chiron.. then part of fortune which has many squares. the ruler of my part of fortune is the mercury conjunct chiron.. i mean mercury is sextile my mars, then my mars is square my saturn. saturn is near my north node. not conjunct, but in the same house / direction. i feel like the chiron in capricorn shows insecurity & pain / difficulty when it comes to security in general. the disharmonious aspects to my part of fortune in virgo from both sides of my chart (squaring both planets in my south & north nodes) i feel is also responsible for my problem with routine, not wanting to work (virgo is connected to work, routine, health, fitness) saturn is also connected to structure & discipline, to me this all shows to myself my personal struggles when it comes to security in general, but with saturn near my north node in 8th house gemini, i interpret this as in this lifetime, in order for me to really grow & go toward my life purpose, i would have to go towards: mental, emotional, spiritual, sexual, physical, material stability. the reason why i come to this conclusion is because: gemini is a mental sign. the 8th house is a deeply emotional, spiritual, intuitive, mysterious house connected to money & also sexuality, as well as trauma. it's seen as a pretty unstable house, but then my saturn is there. saturn is all about structure, stability, physical, material things. it is meant to keep things together in proper and stable structure. this energy paired with the 8th & gemini i see this as i really need to stabilize these / many things in myself.
i have gotten past life reading through my chart before, i think it was evolutionary astrology or something? forgot what it was called but this reader was very talented.. & i have done a past life regression on myself. what i saw was that in my past life i was an extremely unstable & deeply hurt person, i probably ended up killing myself or at least wanting to. i feel i was very mentally & emotionally unstable before i died in my last life which has been brought over to my current life & my north node does show i need to work through so much & gain personal mental / emotional & physical stability that i did not have / start with. i have also seen things like at some point i was part of royalty & would look down on other people out of my own insecurities. i didn't do anything too bad to others but i would put others down verbally out of my own insecurities. i also saw that i was a man mostly. i also saw that i was deeply betrayed by someone i really loved which pushed me toward a spiral of heartbreak for a long time, extreme mistrust of others & even started betraying others myself out of fear of trust & out of my own deep personal pain. if any of this is true it would explain my nature in this current life a lot. i learned so many lessons already in my current life, i was abused by my family since a young age & it helped me be nicer & more understanding of others, but i did have a habit & deep fear of intimacy & i would end up betraying others to try to protect myself, it's weird how that started at such a young age for me, & if what i remembered about my past life/lives is true it would explain a lot of my unexplainable behavior or traits of my personality i brought in this life since a very young age.. i mean the idea of past lives would explain a lot why even very young babies are so unique with their personalities & quirks..
back to my betrayal of others since a young age out of my own fear & want for power & self protection / preservation... which i'm still working through now. i do feel like i've improved this a lot compared to my earlier life. i still made mistakes not that long ago but i am more aware of it than before & am actually trying to grow from it & stop & have already grown from it a lot, but it took a lot of pain to myself & another person to get to that point. i mean hey pain & trauma really can be super transformative even toward better & good, i guess that is why all that relates to pluto.. still i feel i am, even if slowly, becoming better with this & growing from it.. but i did get really hurt in this current life through relationships along the way. like really badly. fell in love w a narcissist who used & manipulated me, was assaulted by someone i trusted, assaulted by strangers, betrayed by people i rlly trusted close to me, blamed for being assaulted, never getting apologies from my assaulters or the people who have really wronged me etc. which has made me feel so fucked up in this current life, it just has given me more bullshit i need to work through.. but yeah i'm still here i'm still strong i'm still alive, what i've noticed is i used to hold huge grudges over people, & while i still am very protective of myself & selective now & not afraid to cut off/be rude/keep distance from family members forever, i do feel i've become more forgiving than when i was younger. (my motto: you don't need to keep someone in your life in order to forgive them. you can forgive them & not keep them in your life.) basically i hold less onto the pain as i did before, whether family or relationship partners or strangers even if they've violated me.. it took years to get to this but it's a nicer feeling.. i can be crazy & aggressive when defending myself, but i do feel more like i let it all go a lot easier.. it just doesn't bother me a lot easily anymore, i deal with harsh things a bit more better & i'm really proud of this.. but i do need to go toward more stability rather than letting myself be super unstable since i'm comfortable in unstable energy.. my nn with saturn there is tellin me i need to be more stable in many ways.. emotionally mentally physically & in my relationships & sexuality.. what is interesting is that saturn in the 8th house is described as a placement of someone who has to work through trust issues in relationships, struggles with having deep intimacy with someone else.
i know this all sounds crazy to most who are not open to these ideas stumbling across this.. but whateva, those who get it, will get it, & those who don't won't, & it's ok! just sharing my experiences feelings n thoughts.. anyway in one of my past life regressions (the lifetime when i was royalty) it felt like from the roman era, i got a sense that i was a prince or a knight or something along those lines, i mean knights could connect to royalty since they work for royalty.. maybe in one life i was a prince another life i was a knight idk, i got vibes & memories of both these things.. maybe when i was a knight it was during roman era & when i was a prince it was a different era/life i think.. but i remember seeing myself die from a high place, like from the very top of a castle-like tower. it was all beige & looked like bricks. (this is all crazy for me to type out, because i am not a very mentally visual / imaginative person, when i close my eyes i generally just see black, some people have vivid minds & imaginations but i have none, i saw all this during a past life regression / hypnosis type video to put myself in a state & be able to remember past life memories hidden deep within my subconscious mind.. that's how i saw all this, which is not usual for me, but yeah, it's crazy the things i sensed, saw, felt as very real parts from past lives!) im not sure if i was the one who did it but it felt like someone else pushed me off or something else pushed me off & i died. it's like during that death i didn't even see or know / fully understand what killed me bc it was so fast & sudden & abrupt & quick to happen + end. maybe i was pushed / made to fall off but i didn't clearly see what or who or how. i did sense a shove from someone else tho, like they sneakily & very quickly did it while i was distracted, or they were mad at me or somethin & did it out of nowhere, an attack from an enemy out of nowhere, somethin like that; i felt completely caught off guard of it happenin. when i saw this i was shook because when i was a very young child i had a HUGE fear of heights i couldnt even do the monkey bars bc of the immense fear i would feel from bein so high. later i heard somewhere whatever is your greatest fear might be the cause of you death in a past life. so when i saw this years later during a past life regression i was like woah, that would make sense why my fear of heights was so very strong as a child. especially because if you believe in reincarnation, your younger years from your childhood would be more connected / close / recent & more connected to your past life. also a royal past life would make sense with my heavy south node in the 2h... the whole pain from past life love / betrayal & toxic relationships / more betrayal after that would make sense with the venus conjunct pluto near my south node as well.. there's so many aspects of mine which would make all this make sense.. the fact i saw myself very unstable / suicidal in a past life.. the instability would show in my aquarius moon conjunct neptune, a lot of deep tension would make sense to my pluto opposition to my saturn... & my mars square saturn, a blockage / tension relating to my action / willpower & my stability.. even mercury & chiron in capricorn, capricorn being known to be a pessimistic energy, mercury being connected to the mind, chiron connected to suffering/wounds, my chiron is exactly at 0 degrees, 0 degrees means its in its truest expression.. part of fortune in virgo known for stability square sun, square mercury.. i might sound crazy with the whole past life regression stuff, but this is what i saw & felt when i tried the hypnosis by myself, i've also seen this in tarot cards when i would ask about my past life too, & what other astrology readers have said about me too without explaining this to them.